The Ramblings of a Teenager Searching for the Answers

Thu, 08 Apr 2004 00:01:29 GMT

Dathan is so sweet. He stopped by the school to see me this afternoon before his band practice. He had picked up Allen and Cynthia. That's really sweet of him because ***** is an ass sometimes, like lastnight, so Cynthia wouldn't have been able to go otherwise. I don't want to go into detail on here, but it was a very nice thing of him to do. That, and he came to see ME! Yay!

Tue, 06 Apr 2004 14:57:17 GMT

I see the leaves in the trees along the roadside. I feel the wind blowing through my hair like tiny little fingers. I see the blades of grass turning a bright green that touches my soul. The sun clutches me in its warmth and cradles my troubles away. I've opened. I am a blooming flower. I reach for the hand of the one I love. I softly kiss his lips as the bee sucking nectar from the womb of life. You gave me life...you showed me how to love...
I LOVE YOU, DATHAN!

CONCERT THIS SATURDAY!!!!

Tue, 06 Apr 2004 14:50:47 GMT

SUMMER SECTION DROWNING / LONG TIME COMING / AMBIENCE

Saturday, April 10, 2004
Live at Slingin' Ink
Hwy 41 Henderson, KY
Doors open at 6:00 pm
Show starts at 7:00 pm
All ages admission $5.00

1. Take the WK PARKWAY WEST ramp.
2. Merge onto WENDELL H FORD WESTERN KENTUKCY PARKWAY W
3. Merge onto EDWARD T BREATHITT PENNYRILE PKWY N via exit 38B toward Madisonville.
4. EDWARD T BREATHITT PENNYYRILE PKWY N becomes PENNYRILE PKWY N.
5. Take the KY-351 exit - exit number 79 - toward ZION/HENDERSON.
6. Turn RIGHT onto US-41/KY-351/2ND ST. Continue to follow KY-351/2ND ST.
7. Turn LEFT onto US-41 ALT/US-60/N GREEN ST.
8. Follow North - half a mile from the bridge to Evansville, large sign will say "slingin' ink"

Everyone should go! It should be a really good show. A few radio stations will be there. If you can't go tune into 93.9, I believe.

I never knew

Sun, 04 Apr 2004 18:01:14 GMT

I know I've been with some really sweet guys, but this tops them all. I honestly never knew before him what love was. I felt a glimmer of it with Chris, but things weren't meant to be. It was my child-like hope that kept the embers burning in my heart. Now the fire has been lit to full glory, and it is never ending. It burns with the vigor of the hottest sun. I would die in his arms with a smile on my lips as long as I knew he still loved me. This is something I'll never take for granted. It is something that has changed my life forever, and for the better. Thank you, God!

Oh Dear!

Fri, 02 Apr 2004 18:34:14 GMT

If I was stuck on an island with Bush...I might just have to kill everyone...Including myself...Maybe I'd just chop him up and feed him to my cat.

Who will you be stuck with at end of time? by chi_a_baidh
Your name is
Your sex is
Your favorite color is
You are stuck there because	you murdered everyone else
For _____ years	10
With
He/She will think you are	stupid
You will	repopulate the earth

Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

Fri, 02 Apr 2004 05:02:42 GMT

Amber, thank you for being such an awesome friend. I really do wish I could have stayed longer. I had a great time hanging out with you. I really like all your friends. They seem really fun to be around. I really like Dave. You would make good parents. BTW, that tea....yum...it was better than the linguine alfredo.

Tue, 30 Mar 2004 10:12:39 GMT

Kudos for everyone! My life has gone bad ass. My eyes have been opened to the world around me, and I love it. God lifted me up and said, "You finally get what you both deserve, and it is each other." Things happen when you least expect them to, but they happen for a reason. Everything does. And if I play my cards right, I might have found the jackpot of happiness.

I'm sorry for the people I've hurt, but one must be hurt and hurt in return. Without it, they can't love. I didn't purposely hurt Levy, he knew things were'nt going well, and I think he's okay with it. I'm sorry, Chris, for being an asshole. At least you knew what I was doing, so you were prepared.

Hmmm....Interesting

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 03:02:53 GMT

"I really don't like being without my penis for too long. It makes me feel like less of a man, and I really hate having to sit down every time I take a leak."

What??? I mean come on, how can you not like this band. Thanks to Dathan I'm hooked now.

Tue, 23 Mar 2004 00:44:42 GMT

"But real friendship, once ended, cannot be mended." ~ T.S. Eliot

Opossums Suck

Sun, 21 Mar 2004 06:38:56 GMT

I went to go feed the horses this morning and when I stuck my hand down in the barrel to get them some sweet feed, a giant rat looked me in the face, hissed, and tried to bite me! I freaked out! I went running up to the house, flung open the door, and screamed, "Get me a gun!" My parents laughed at me, but I hate opossums. Dad shot him for me. He was so fat he couldn't crawl back out of the barrel, so he was still inside when we got back down to the barn. Blood was all over the bags of cat food, horse treats, and sweet feed. I had to tear holes in the bags and poor them into buckets so blood wouldn't contaminate it. It was disgusting.

I talked to Lance. The first time in over a month. It was nice to talk to him again. I hadn't heard his voice in so long. He still is like a best friend to me.

I then went and picked up Levy. We stopped by the horse sale to browse and get spurs. They didn't have any clover spurs, so we went to Rural King and bought some there. Then we went to Amber's house. I love Amber. If I was a lesbian I would probably be in love with her. I'm not though. Every time I hang out with her though, I am never sad. She's the person that walks into a room and it is as if the sun just shown through the clouds on a cold rainy day to take the chill away. I can't wait until spring break! Levy liked her too. I think they could relate to each other a lot if they were put in a room together by themselves to talk. They are actually a lot alike now that I think about it. They don't know these similarities they share about each other though. Weird...

We saw Dawn of the Dead together, Friday. That movie is great! If you love horror movies you'll feel like you've just been groped after you've watched it. If you don't really like horror movies, well, you'll still have the same affect. Damnit...I wasn't groped during that movie. *lol* I'm joking. We wouldn't do that. I saw Dathan there. That was so weird. I discovered his xanga, and then days later I see him at a movie. I bet he thinks I'm stalking him now.

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 00:14:38 GMT

The B is mad at Thrifty Nickel. They only chose one ad from our school. We had some really good stuff we submitted too! I got funniest ad for my picture of the raccoon riding the pig.

The Lord Blesses Me With Friends

Sat, 06 Mar 2004 04:59:51 GMT

This is a thank you to all of my dear friends that help me so much in life! You are all wonderful inspirations for me and help to guide me constantly. Thank you for being good people at heart and in your actions. I love you all so much.

Mandy ~ You are so dear to me. You are kind-hearted and always try help me any way you can.

Tiffany ~ Whenever a problem comes along, you are close by to defend me. You listen to what I have to say and actually care.

Alex ~ You are such a sweetheart. I really believe you can do no evil. I owe you a lot.

Rachel ~ You've been my friend since the sixth grade. What would I have ever done without you? *hugs*

Levy ~ You are new to my life, but you brighten my day and warm my heart each time I see you smile. You fill my life with things I never thought existed. I love you!

Beth ~ You're are great to hang out with and get my mind off things. I love to hear you bitch because I agree with you so much on matters. You're great.

Amber ~ I still wish we had more nights to just talk in bed about nothing and everything. I miss you! It has been way too long since I've seen you last. I should see you or stay with you spring break?

Erin ~ I don't you that well, but I like you. You're funny. Thanks for understanding.

Zane ~ Geez, what do I say about Daddy? Words just don't cut it!

Monk ~ You are wise in your ways and I wish I took your advice more often.

I know I'm leaving some people out, and I'm really sorry. I love you guys too! I should go thank my family right now because they are the ones that have ALWAYS been there since day one to support me. I wouldn't be the person I am now if it wasn't for my loving family and God. Who thanks him enough?

Sat, 06 Mar 2004 04:37:04 GMT

BTW...it isn't deleted...Friends can see it...That is who is suppose to be reading my journal...Thanks for caring! :)

Sal de mi vida, no salgas a la calle!

Sat, 06 Mar 2004 04:35:50 GMT

Haha...

Mon, 01 Mar 2004 00:43:05 GMT

At least the quiz says I am High-Class whore...The bus driver better get it right! *lol*

Mon, 01 Mar 2004 00:38:29 GMT

Your Moulin Rouge Status: by pinkrobelover
Your Name:
Your deepest secret:	You got piss drunk with absinthe and performed the "can can can" on yourself.
The Bohemian Ideal You hold true to most is:	Truth
Your Job at the Moulin Rouge:	High-priced Whore
What the customers think:	You're kinky
Favorite Quote:	"All you need is love!"

Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0!

Levy

Sun, 29 Feb 2004 19:49:38 GMT

Check out my yahoo photo album for pictures of my love.

http://f2.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/devonzurrii/album?.tok=ph6nHnABQ9Ict6_C&.dir=/a8fd&.src=ph

Thu, 26 Feb 2004 03:43:20 GMT

I feel like so much shit now! I can't believe this. Everyone must think I'm a whore! I didn't know hugging people in public was so terribley slutty!

FROM LEVY'S XANGA

"so...my bus driver called devon a whore for being with me, so i took up for devon...i proved the bus driver wrong and she got upset and tryed to get me kicked off the bus...if i get kicked off the bus even for a day, my grandparents are going to force me to move to north and she knows that...so the principal said he never got write ups for me before so he said it was a second offense...i got 5 demerits. she moved me to the front seat, so i can't even talk to my friends to get my mind of this shit...

i think they were kool with me now and all, and then the assistant principal gives me shit about holding devon in my arms...says i can only hold her hand and i have to be a foot apart from her when we do so...i mean wtf, people fuck at skool and get away with it, but someone realized that i was finally happy for once and decided to fuck with me, they told every teacher in skool almost about us and to watch for us, the prinicipals were in all the spots we meet and hug each day today...they were even at the bus, one hug would have made it all go away...that's all i ask for...but no, all she could do was blow me a kiss...it hurt alot, her being there right in front of me...and i couldn't do anything but walk away...she will be gone to college soon...they could at least let me hug her once and awhile...but i guess i am selfish and asking for to much...

when i got of the bus, the bus driver stopped me and my back back got caught on this fat kid, my cd player was jerked out of my hands and it broke...then the fat kid that broke it said goodbye cd player and the busdriver just laughed...

i have a migraine...life is peachy

I LOVE DEVON!!!"

Wed, 18 Feb 2004 22:42:08 GMT

I'm going to try to refrain from filling my livejournal with my overflowing happiness. I assure all of you that I mean it more than ever when I say that I am honestly happy to be with Levy. He is the perfect man for me, and there is no other to my knowledge. I do not doubt that he could be "the one." That's all I'll say for now.

If quantum theories really do exist, then is it possible that your true love is an altered version of yourself? Could you actually share a soul? I thought about that today in Physics.

I need a favor

Sun, 15 Feb 2004 23:14:08 GMT

I would be forever grateful if anyone can get me a code for livejournal. I would really like it if Levy could start one. If not, that's okay. I just thought it would be worth asking. Thanks a lot.

I love you all!

Sun, 15 Feb 2004 06:23:37 GMT

I want to wish everyone a Happy Valentine's Day. This has been the most special day of my life. I can die happy now! I love Levy Schultz more than anything in the whole world and I just want everyone to know it! Finding him has been the best thing that every happened to me. He is the absolute most wonderful guy I've ever met. I can't stop smiling, I can't eat,I can't sleep, I shake with happiness. I'm falling or have just tripped completely into a big puddle of love!

I am Just Giddy!

Fri, 13 Feb 2004 02:56:01 GMT

Everything is so wonderful for me now! I feel like...I just don't know...Immensely happy! It is confusing, but I'm happy. The other guy I had a crush on likes me now. And he is more intriguing than I initially thought. There is that very special person in my life, but things once again didn't work out just yet. I really think that the crush and I might really have something kool though. He's so hot!

Tue, 10 Feb 2004 22:17:29 GMT

There is this guy that I have a crush on ,lately, at school. I found out today that he has a girlfriend. That makes me sad, because today I even started to like him more. I felt like I was just getting to know him better. We laughed and had fun together. This makes it worse for me. It just sucks. Everything will not always go my way, I know. There are slim pickings at my school though.

GRRR

Tue, 10 Feb 2004 02:16:01 GMT

Darn MSN for kicking me off and not letting me sign back in! Grr on it! What's its problem anyway!

Mrs. B nominated me for a scholarship today. I was really happy to recieve it from her. Art may not be a subject taken very seriously from the administration, but it really means a lot to me. I work just as hard in there as I do in any other class. I'll have to get some of my other works and put them on yahoo.

Sun, 08 Feb 2004 06:28:36 GMT

If you want to check out some pictures of me, my "sister", and a very few works of art (my art) then go here: http://f2.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/devonzurrii/album?.tok=ph6nHnABQ9Ict6_C&.dir=/a8fd&.src=ph